{"id":118,"date":"2009-05-08T18:15:18","date_gmt":"2009-05-08T18:15:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/themightyten.com\/blog19\/?p=118"},"modified":"2009-05-08T18:15:18","modified_gmt":"2009-05-08T18:15:18","slug":"my-last-winter-storyentry-for-april-05-2007","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/themightyten.com\/blog19\/?p=118","title":{"rendered":"My last Winter story&#8230;.Entry for April 05, 2007"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I woke up this morning in a hazy fog. I had been sicker then I can ever remember&#8230;.flu-like fever&#8230;non-eating&#8230;sweat-filled pillow&#8230;nightmares&#8230;yet I still needed to be at work. The dayshift guy just had an eye operation. Walking the ten blocks from Port Authority in the pouring rain without an umbrella&#8230;getting poked by unbrellas&#8230;people and reality seemed not real&#8230;a hazy-hallucanagetic quality. Colors and sounds distant. Cars honking. The subway thundering like an earthquake underneath&#8230;I had underdressed&#8230;I thought it was Spring&#8230;what happened to spring(I began shivering..i thought of my warm bed&#8230;or even my chair at work)&#8211;the bus ride seemed even longer today. It made me remember once when I was a kid waiting for a bus with a bunch of other kids. A brutally cold Winter morning. I noticed that I was the only kid there without gloves. When I finally got to school my hands were still so red and numb that I had a hard time gripping my pencil.<br \/>\nONCE&#8230;..before you died, Mom&#8230;&#8230;you came up to me in Barbaras backyard. I remember exactly the precise area&#8230;.but it is funny&#8230;.I have no idea what occasion we were all back there for&#8230;.or who was even there. But you approached me&#8230;.awkwardly&#8230;.and you said, &#8220;I&#8217;m sorry, George.&#8221;<br \/>\nIt was probably a year before you died&#8230;.and you knew you were dying. I remember being speechless&#8230;.sorry&#8230;..for what?&#8230;.did you just step on my foot?&#8230;.or are you apologizing for being a bad mother?&#8230;..I just said&#8230;..&#8221;It&#8217;s allright.&#8221;<br \/>\nThe day the fever broke today April 5. I felt so much better. It was like coming out of a caccoon! All that rain had made trees start to bloom and tulips start to flower&#8230;&#8230;but it was still so cold. The sky was blue&#8230;..then the sky was black. (Typical March weather here) Then it started to snow&#8230;&#8230;and I watched it come down. Standing there looking up at the black and blue sky&#8230;.trying to figure out which crazy cloud starting snowing on me. Everything was brand new to me. I was out of my caccoon. The world was a blooming flower. I am sorry I never cried at you funeral dear mother&#8230;..and I am sorry I haven&#8217;t accepted your apology&#8230;&#8230;yet.<a href=\"https:\/\/themightyten.com\/blog19\/wp-content\/uploads\/2009\/05\/madmom.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/themightyten.com\/blog19\/wp-content\/uploads\/2009\/05\/madmom.jpg\" alt=\"\" title=\"madmom\" width=\"333\" height=\"333\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-119\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I woke up this morning in a hazy fog. I had been sicker then I can ever remember&#8230;.flu-like fever&#8230;non-eating&#8230;sweat-filled pillow&#8230;nightmares&#8230;yet I still needed to be at work. The dayshift guy just had an eye operation. 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