This is it. It has been ALMOST ten years since our wonderful mother has passed. Seems like yesterday right? As I write this it is almost exactly ten years ago that she happened upon a paper and pen and wrote what is now the very front (index) page of the family web site.
Also this week it has been two years since they took me in the office in New York at Apple Digital Graphics and told me “It was nice, but it’s over.” The most I remember of that was the very blurry and surreal ten block walk to the early (at least today it was) long bus ride home. “So…here I am again. Looking for work.” and I always think of those lucky bastards that always have a way to not punch the clock, yet they make it through life. Or the other lucky bastards that put in an application for ONE job. Get it. Then work it for twenty-thirty years and retire and go home. They never have any clue of what it is like to be standing in the cold begging for a job.
A very somber photo of a woman who had a tough life.
So in those two years since my NYC layoff I’m thinking-I don’t miss that art community at all-nor do I have any faith or love for any art community for that matter. They are all self-centered selfish jerks that are so totally absorbed in their own crap and are constantly fishing for compliments. Once I went into a Barnes and Noble Book store with an “artist” (many years ago” and I was excited to look at art magazines with this person to get ideas, inspiration etc etc. But this person, you see, refused. “I don’t look at other peoples art, I’m too involved with my own.” (buzzer sound) Guess what “artist”??? wrong fucking selfish answer!! I don’t know why I am constantly measuring time. And I measure time by years. And a year is alot. Ten years since my mother died. Ten years since I got fired at Lucent Technologies, two years since the Apple Digital Graphics layoff. Almost ten years since 9/11 terrorist attack. Ten years since my divorce. In the last two years all the disastrous dates, fumbled relationships, sleeping in my car, collecting unemployment, living in the woods in upstate NY somewhere, the interviews, the “under-the-table” weedwhacking job in the ninety degree Summer days. The bouts of severe depression, staying sober through it, feeling a million years from my children. Then the art teacher and another art community and her layoff . Throwing on a dress shirt in the parking lot of the Parsippany Hilton for yet ANOTHER job interview. By now, well versed and confident (I have been in this hot seat of questions way too many times to not be nervous anymore. The English guy called me the next day (while I was working at a sign design shop in New City New York, sleeping in my car) and told me that I got the job but I already knew that by the way he was eyeing me in the interview. I’m not afraid anymore after these two years. I’ve been through so much shit that I have become a very wise man. When I met Cat, I was Dog.
I was still sunburned from cutting the lawns and weedwhacking in Central New Jersey. I was late for the first date. I was sleeping in my office. I was living one day at a time. A little while after that, the British guy told me to meet him at Ruths Chris Steak House for dinner and as I was chewing on a $50 dollar steak, my boss from New York called and wanted me back. I made a fool outta myself, the phone slipping out of my hands from the garlic butter and I couldn’t turn the ring tone off. The British guy gave me a 10 grand raise and a year later after that a $5,000 dollar after Christmas bonus. For what? For becoming a total extension of this new job. For living, eating and sleeping graphics. For pretty much performing miracles of 60-70 hour work weeks. In this time I met Mike who was married to Joanna who was my girlfriends sister. She quit a nice salaried job to go back to school at the Visual Arts in NYC by special invite. Mike is an extremely talented puppet creator who sides as a Saturday Nightmares convention maker. He ran into a little trouble making puppets on ebay with some sesame street copyright infringement bullshit but now has a way around it. Joanna was handed a brand new guitar on the first day of a second semester class (with 18 others) and was told to pretty much create something from it. Based on a musician and her/his charity. So I guess most famous people with alot of money have charity’s sincere or not-basically to make them feel less guilty for being richer than God and it always works nice as a TAX WRITE-OFF. So my girlfriends EX has a job where he builds floats for parades. I never knew that could be a real job, let alone a year-round full time job. I thought the puppet making job was pretty cool but building parade floats is right up there. Meanwhile down in Florida the property that is in my name is slowly deteriorating but my very talented wood-working brothers, Grant and Gary are going to fix it up and rent it out. I have fallen behind on the taxes and the property insurance has expired. The only neighbor that lives there, Tim (the same first name as my British boss) told my crafty brothers that he caught a man with a pick-up truck trying to steal my refrigerator from the property. This is a disturbing thing, when something 2,000 miles away from you is being taken. Talk about feeling helpless. I wasn’t even sure how old the refrigerator is so I asked my brothers and they said “pretty new” so now that pissed me off. If it was really old, maybe I wouldn’t care if he took it, the fucking thieving bastard. My girlfriend creates many different kinds of art
Seven chakra jewelry
and recently sold something to someone in Belgium. Now THAT is how powerful the WEB has become. I used to love my job but now, I don’t know. It has sucked all my creative energy into a ball and thrown it away. I have been on my hands and kness looking for it. Egypt is so far away, I don’t care. Since Tim has become my boss, slowly but surely, all my crazy bills have gotten paid off. I can buy books and magazines for myself again. I go out to eat in strange nice places. I have lived in the THREE New Jerseys in my life. South. Central and now this wild jungle called North Jersey. There are alot of nice neighborhoods up here. Here, in the shadows of New York. I have found myself in strongly -knit Poish communities, waiting in line for pork and bread. Listening for hours to Polocks speaking Polish. Thinking that maybe old school Communism is gonna be ok.
Garfield, little Poland as seen from Botany Villiage
Here in Botany Village the melting pot of the north Jersey. Here in the depths of the year 2011, on a rainy cold night in the beginnig of March. In between Winter and Spring, Easter and rolling black clouds. I miss my family, I miss dancing with my brothers in my bedroom to the Grateful Dead, I miss being alone, I miss someone “liking” what I took a photo of. I miss being heard, I’m a little tired of listening, to all my employees, to my two boys, to my close friends and all their new endeavors and the exciting things going on. If I keep listening long enough I will learn another language. I could weed whack the McMansions of the rich people using no hands. If that butterfly guitar that opens from Africa ever gets into the view of Madonna, there would be a slight chance that I could meet her. We could smoke cigarettes together and sip long glasses of brandy. Joanna the designer, Merick the contractor, Mke the puppet and convention creator, Halina the nurse and Jack the float builder, Krystina the art teacher, Charles the guitar player, Anna the singer, Josh and Jonathan, my long lost dad, my mother would all be there. My mom would be writing letters, half in the bag, scribbling memories of her short life, spent one third of it pregnant, watching John Wayne movies….and sleeping in the room downstairs that used to be our garage. You will walk through life and meet all kinds of people. We all do this….and enjoy your life, with Gods help we can all be together again. (great advice mom)
_The effects of the moon-
February's full moon-2011
About George C. Hartman
Redesiging design, coloring outside the lines, rolling down hills, figuring out strange people, dreaming in black and white, photographing in black and white, juggling, body surfing, fantasy football, painting, design, digital art and photo manipulation, green oceans, blue oceans, museums, discovering small towns, biking, beach, relationships that tear my heart out, bad poetry, movie making and BLOGGING
I support Manchester United how much does zofran cost in australia Asked if the budget cuts played a role in the decision to ratchet up the index, the center’s Roberta D’Amico said, “There has been some adjustment this year because of sequestration. We are in a situation where funding is tight. We do have to evaluate where to put resources and there has been a modest impact from sequestration.”
I’d like to take the job can lisinopril be used to treat anxiety Oregon Senator Ron Wyden has introduced a bill to require local police, as well as foster care and child welfare programmes to identify children lured into sex trafficking as victims of abuse and neglect, making them eligible for protection and services.
Do you need a work permit? promethazine codeine para que es Apparatchiks are still running the show!!! Cameron should have moved on these people from day one. Instead he tried to play The-Heir-to-Blair and lost. Now its good bye Dave you are the weakest link.
Not available at the moment how long does propranolol er 60 mg last Hermansonâs story is just one of many that have been impacted by cancer, but she knows that with the help and compassion of others, many stories can be filled with victory over the trials and devastation of cancer and offer hope and cures for years to come.
I’d like to withdraw $100, please where to buy viagra pills
For Obamacare to succeed, the White House needs to attract2.7 million younger consumers between the ages of 18 to 35,mostly male and non-white, to participate in new online healthinsurance exchanges.
Wonderfull great site 30 mg doxepin for sleep The service has spent some $967 million to protect lives and properties amid a season that has seen fires in Idaho, Utah, Colorado and California threaten homes and communities that border forest and wild lands where fire is more dangerous and costly to fight, Ferris said.
What’s the interest rate on this account? prozac for canines But it is not just the three main political parties that will spend the next seven months debating the NHS; the Green party has promised to introduce an NHS tax to provide additional funding for the service, to increase and protect the funding of community services and abolish prescription charges; and UKIP has pledged evening opening hours for GPS surgeries, scrapping hospital parking charges and a new regulator to license NHS managers.
Your account’s overdrawn ciprofloxacina gotas dosis On Sunday, ESPN’s “Outside the Lines” reported the NCAA is investigating whether the first freshman to win college football’s top individual honor was paid for his autograph on photos and sports memorabilia. Two sources told the program the QB was paid a five-figure fee during his trip to Miami for the BCS title game to sign the memoribilia.
Have you got any ? precio del medicamento micardis But Bombardier, which also makes trains, is staking a claimin a niche: the single-aisle, 100- to 149-seat class that ismidway between the size of so-called “regional” planes and thelarger commercial jetliners of Boeing and Airbus. Bombardiersays it can corner half that market over the next 20 years.
Best Site good looking how many dulcolax pills can you take Australia would have been spared their anger over Aleem Dar’s failure to give out Stuart Broad had they not wasted their one remaining review on an appeal against Jonny Bairstow eight minutes before lunch.
I’m not sure recursos bibliograficos upc
The spat unfolded after Josh Rogin, a foreign policy writer for the Daily Beast, fired off a pair of snarky tweets about comedian Dan Nainanâs bit during an event at the Improv in Dupont Circle on Wednesday night.
What qualifications have you got? curso de preparacion para el ielts online gratis
Westports will expand capacity by 68 percent to 16 millionTEUs, in part to comply with requirements from the Malaysiangovernment before it extends the company’s concession by 30years to 2054. Gnanalingam said Westports will tap debt marketsto fund growth.
I’m afraid that number’s ex-directory didcount viagra In a letter to Obama released Monday, Feinstein outlined a series of recommendations “intended to make sure that the United States never again engages in actions that you have acknowledged were torture.” The documented shortcomings in the CIA’s decade-old interrogation program “should prompt additional oversight and better sharing of information for all covert action and significant intelligence collection programs,” she said.
A pension scheme generic sumatriptan tablets Davis, 50, who is running for re-election to the state Senate in 2014 and has been called upon by some fellow Democrats to run for Texas governor, raised $933,000 in two weeks and now has more than $1 million in her campaign coffers, her campaign said.
Could I ask who’s calling? levonorgestrel etinilestradiol engordan Thereâs been other good stuff too, but this ainât no oral history. Simply put, itâs too late to turn back now. The suits have shown a willingness to make aggressive moves. Obtaining the Mets must be their next. Allowing another station to buy the rights would be a major mistake.
Have you got a telephone directory? denzel curry ultimate bpm
She has presided over a strong recovery in the Germaneconomy and a sharp reduction in unemployment, but economistsare worried that Germany could lose momentum without reforms andnew initiatives to head off a looming demographic crisis.
Do you like it here? kamagraahora
Customarily, Cohen has paid bonuses to employees based on performance through the end of November and holds back a portion into the new year. He also announced a second round of retention bonuses earlier this month, boosting pay that is already considered very generous by industry standards.
I’ll call back later how much nolvadex to take on cycle For the moment, Stenson has the FedExCup title in his control. At the start of the week, he and the other members of the top five in the standings – Woods, Scott, Zach Johnson and Matt Kuchar – knew they would automatically secure the playoff trophy with victory on Sunday.
This is your employment contract goodrx alphagan Lee’s speech seemed intended to show voters that Singapore under the PAP will evolve well beyond the era of his father, the 89-year-old Lee Kuan Yew, the country’s founder prime minister. The elder Lee’s stern and technocratic policies are credited with turning Singapore from a colonial outpost in the 1960s into a flourishing financial center with clean streets and the world’s highest concentration of millionaires.
Looking for work amoxicillin 500 mg dosage for dogs Castillo says there’s a “strong showing of potential bias” and ordered the government to turn over the name and race of each defendant in such cases brought by federal prosecutors in the Chicago area since 2006.
Please wait generic cialis professional (tadalafil) With everyone from NFL players and firefighters to thousands of cancer survivors and friends going pink for October, breast cancer awareness has never been higher . Considering that 230,000 new cases are diagnosed every year, no community or circle of friends remains untouched.
Do you know the address? celebrex off the market Israel, which is not a signatory to the Nuclear Non-Proliferation Treaty, is widely believed to possess several hundred nuclear warheads. The chance of it using nukes in such a counterattack on Syria “is low, but not zero,” Cohen said.
I’m from England mk 677 capsules australia “Last year, every five steps it was like, âVote yes!’ Vote no!’ Vote yes!'” said Katelyn Cherry, 18, who ate shaved ice from a cone while sitting on a patch of grass next to a glass bong. “There’s none of that going on anymore, so that’s nice.”
I’m doing a phd in chemistry nootkatone spray Ackman’s view has been challenged by other Wall Street titans, including investor Carl Icahn, a major stakeholder in Herbalife, and billionaire investor George Soros, who have both taken long positions on Herbalife.
I’d like to pay this in, please migrastil migraine stick australia Asked for how much longer Greece’s economy would be under international supervision, the minister said, “The troika will leave when we can stand on our own two feet and go back to the markets.” Asked when that would be, he said simply, “Soon.”
We’ve got a joint account amitriptyline gel uk Montfort lacked authority as the country's effective ruler as well as support from the baronage, so needed the backing of as wide a section of society as possible, says John Maddicott, former fellow in medieval history at Exeter College, Oxford, and author of The Origins of the English Parliament, 924-1327.
What do you study? buy-otc.com reviews
“It stands out because the last six summers have been wetter than average, with 2012 and 2007 both being in the top five wettest, and 2008 and 2009 also in the top ten wettest in records from 1910.
Could you send me an application form? goqii element watch price Forty years ago, the US Congress voted to end the bombing campaign over Cambodia ending all direct military action in the Vietnam war, and the devastating effects continue to this day in Laos, Cambodia and Vietnam.
This site is crazy 🙂 metoclopramide medscape GREAT was not able to identify who was behind the gang. Butthe manpower and expense needed to wield such a network isbelieved by some experts to point to the involvement of a stateintelligence agency, possibly Russian.
I’d like to open a personal account lincocin 500 mg harga
One former employee said that the bank would twice a month conduct a “blitz” to clear out its HAMP backlog. This employee said a team would in a blitz decline 600 to 1,500 modification files at a time solely because documents were more than 60 days old, even if all required documents had been submitted.
I’m doing a phd in chemistry darma smart cushion
According to the study, incomes among the top one percent rose by 31.4 percent between 2009 and 2012, while incomes for everyone else grew just 0.4 percent. The top decile of earners in the economy now captures more than half the total income.
Have you seen any good films recently? permethrin lotion 5 Putting aside, for the moment, whether or not Muslim women actually have a “choice” in the matter, Murphy was right to acknowledge that veiling, far from being a baseline requirement of the Islamic faith as circumcision is for Jews (and Muslims), is in fact a practice enforced only by the most pious. The majority of Muslims don’t subscribe to the notion that women must cover their faces, as evidenced by the fact that most Muslim women do not do so.
What’s the interest rate on this account? kamagra uk same day delivery Michael S. Leib, attorney with Maddin, Hauser, Wartell, Roth & Heller, P.C. in Southfield, Mich., said the decision as to whether the bankruptcy filing was proper should be determined by the U.S. bankruptcy judge appointed to hear the case.
I love the theatre buy viagra at tesco online Klein has said the issue of pension payments, which the U.S. municipal debt market is watching closely, may be reviewed after Stockton files its plan to adjust its debt. The city aims to file the plan with him in September.
What qualifications have you got? 1818 farms shea cream reviews
Step two compares the ratios of the index fingers to the ring finger and the index finger to the pinky to differentiate between adolescent males and females. The success rate for the known hands was only 60 percent.
Could I have an application form? nutrina african mango Philippine officials say they will soon begin negotiations with the United States on a larger American military presence to help deter what they say is increasing Chinese aggression in Philippine-claimed waters in the South China Sea.
Do you know the address? minoxidil for thicker eyebrows If the destination is sunny, then invest in a solar charger. The Solio Classic 2 only needs a day in the sun in order to deliver sufficient energy to fully recharge a smartphone three times. Compatible with any device via USB, it can also top up a tablet from 50% to 100% battery life.
I’m self-employed over the counter viagra uk At that time, Ramsey had been struggling when asked to start in place of Walcott on the right wing. He began playing in a midfield two with Mikel Arteta during the second half of last season and has continued to thrive in that role with either Jack Wilshere or Mathieu Flamini.
A company car nimotop kaufen Financial ties between Europe and the United States arealready huge, accounting for 60 percent of world banking. EUinvestors own $2.7 trillion of U.S. stocks and bonds, while U.S.residents hold almost as much in Europe.
I’d like to open a personal account when does a cialis pill expire Jackman is so good at playing this character, he got to do a sequel to a movie that teetered on the edge of awful: 2009’s “X-Men Origins: Wolverine,” a film that Jackman acknowledged wasn’t so good and which prompted him to declare he didn’t want to do another Wolverine movie without a better script.
very best job fluoxetine hcl 40 mg capsule side effects Hence his frustration with the growing religious and political divisions in the country. He didnât see religious extremists fighting on the front lines, he says, and neither did all the foreign officials and journalists that came to Zintan during the war to make sure they werenât arming terrorists (his iPhone displays a photo he took with a smiling Hillary Clinton).Â
Canada>Canada universal nutrition gain fast 3100 side effects An attorney files suit against Apple for porn exposure claiming “unfair competition” with his wife, Robert Scoble gets a free sex toy, a teen girl is busted for underage porn over iPhone pics that include herself.
Where are you calling from? muscletech nitro tech power whey protein powder muscle building formula Iâm thinking, specifically, of the passage where he writes about discovering anger at 22. He describes himself on a train platform in Hanover, spiteful and sexually frustrated, throwing coins on the floor. âThere was an element of anti-German hostility in this, because I'd recently had a horrible experience with a penny-pinching old German woman and it did me good to imagine other penny-pinching old German women bending down to pick the coins up, as IÂ knew they would, and thereby aggravating their knee and hip pains,â he writes. This is clearly not a boast; it seems, rather, a shamed admission of petty, callow cruelty. But he just lets it hang there without explicit apology, as if he were writing for an audience whose understanding can be assumed.
A company car metformin 500 mg prospect B37 said that when deliberations began, three of the women were for acquittal, two were for manslaughter and one was leaning towards convicting Zimmerman of second degree murder, a charge that could have put Zimmerman in prison for the rest of his life.
Good crew it’s cool 🙂 la 3 longevity activator reviews
Built in 1908, the 160-unit Apthorp has always been one of Manhattanâs stateliest properties, with its central courtyard, two fountains and ornamental gates â attracting celeb residents including Nora Ephron, Al Pacino and Louis C.K over the years.
I’m not working at the moment buy dapoxetine singapore Harbinger wants to retain control of LightSquared, andauctioning off the company’s assets would undermine that effort.But LightSquared has received bids for its assets, includingDish’s, and with no clear resolution in sight to its regulatoryobstacles, Judge Chapman has pushed the company to solicitadditional buyers through an auction.
I’ve been cut off how to give paracetamol and ibuprofen to a baby People can sign a hard copy of the petition at Lion Videos, Peter Jacks Butchers, William Jones and Sons Butchers, Evans Cafe, Express Cafe, Stars Newsagents, Charlies, Severn Street Chip Shop and Jarman’s Chip Shop.
I’d like to take the job betnovate solucion capilar para que sirve While the debate on authorization might not reach the House or Senate floor as quickly as initially anticipated, Rep. Chris Van Hollen emphasized that legislators will continue crafting alternative resolutions to authorize the president to strike while the diplomatic solution is explored.
I’ve got a full-time job diamox 250 mg tablets
Jason Hollands of Bestinvest, the fund supermarket, said: “We have been warning about the growing risks in large parts of the bond market for some time. We feel that the particularly vulnerable types are government bonds or gilts, index-linked bonds and investment-grade bonds, and especially funds that hold longer-dated bonds. We also think some emerging market debt funds could be vulnerable at the moment, should the dollar strengthen against local currencies.”
Could you give me some smaller notes? can you take tylenol when pregnant for headache First, it allows for the debts and obligations of thebankrupt town to be whittled back to a reasonable proportioncompared to its revenues. That, by restoring some services, canhelp to staunch the bleeding of people and businesses whichotherwise would flee.