This is it. It has been ALMOST ten years since our wonderful mother has passed. Seems like yesterday right? As I write this it is almost exactly ten years ago that she happened upon a paper and pen and wrote what is now the very front (index) page of the family web site.
Also this week it has been two years since they took me in the office in New York at Apple Digital Graphics and told me “It was nice, but it’s over.” The most I remember of that was the very blurry and surreal ten block walk to the early (at least today it was) long bus ride home. “So…here I am again. Looking for work.” and I always think of those lucky bastards that always have a way to not punch the clock, yet they make it through life. Or the other lucky bastards that put in an application for ONE job. Get it. Then work it for twenty-thirty years and retire and go home. They never have any clue of what it is like to be standing in the cold begging for a job.
A very somber photo of a woman who had a tough life.
So in those two years since my NYC layoff I’m thinking-I don’t miss that art community at all-nor do I have any faith or love for any art community for that matter. They are all self-centered selfish jerks that are so totally absorbed in their own crap and are constantly fishing for compliments. Once I went into a Barnes and Noble Book store with an “artist” (many years ago” and I was excited to look at art magazines with this person to get ideas, inspiration etc etc. But this person, you see, refused. “I don’t look at other peoples art, I’m too involved with my own.” (buzzer sound) Guess what “artist”??? wrong fucking selfish answer!! I don’t know why I am constantly measuring time. And I measure time by years. And a year is alot. Ten years since my mother died. Ten years since I got fired at Lucent Technologies, two years since the Apple Digital Graphics layoff. Almost ten years since 9/11 terrorist attack. Ten years since my divorce. In the last two years all the disastrous dates, fumbled relationships, sleeping in my car, collecting unemployment, living in the woods in upstate NY somewhere, the interviews, the “under-the-table” weedwhacking job in the ninety degree Summer days. The bouts of severe depression, staying sober through it, feeling a million years from my children. Then the art teacher and another art community and her layoff . Throwing on a dress shirt in the parking lot of the Parsippany Hilton for yet ANOTHER job interview. By now, well versed and confident (I have been in this hot seat of questions way too many times to not be nervous anymore. The English guy called me the next day (while I was working at a sign design shop in New City New York, sleeping in my car) and told me that I got the job but I already knew that by the way he was eyeing me in the interview. I’m not afraid anymore after these two years. I’ve been through so much shit that I have become a very wise man. When I met Cat, I was Dog.
I was still sunburned from cutting the lawns and weedwhacking in Central New Jersey. I was late for the first date. I was sleeping in my office. I was living one day at a time. A little while after that, the British guy told me to meet him at Ruths Chris Steak House for dinner and as I was chewing on a $50 dollar steak, my boss from New York called and wanted me back. I made a fool outta myself, the phone slipping out of my hands from the garlic butter and I couldn’t turn the ring tone off. The British guy gave me a 10 grand raise and a year later after that a $5,000 dollar after Christmas bonus. For what? For becoming a total extension of this new job. For living, eating and sleeping graphics. For pretty much performing miracles of 60-70 hour work weeks. In this time I met Mike who was married to Joanna who was my girlfriends sister. She quit a nice salaried job to go back to school at the Visual Arts in NYC by special invite. Mike is an extremely talented puppet creator who sides as a Saturday Nightmares convention maker. He ran into a little trouble making puppets on ebay with some sesame street copyright infringement bullshit but now has a way around it. Joanna was handed a brand new guitar on the first day of a second semester class (with 18 others) and was told to pretty much create something from it. Based on a musician and her/his charity. So I guess most famous people with alot of money have charity’s sincere or not-basically to make them feel less guilty for being richer than God and it always works nice as a TAX WRITE-OFF. So my girlfriends EX has a job where he builds floats for parades. I never knew that could be a real job, let alone a year-round full time job. I thought the puppet making job was pretty cool but building parade floats is right up there. Meanwhile down in Florida the property that is in my name is slowly deteriorating but my very talented wood-working brothers, Grant and Gary are going to fix it up and rent it out. I have fallen behind on the taxes and the property insurance has expired. The only neighbor that lives there, Tim (the same first name as my British boss) told my crafty brothers that he caught a man with a pick-up truck trying to steal my refrigerator from the property. This is a disturbing thing, when something 2,000 miles away from you is being taken. Talk about feeling helpless. I wasn’t even sure how old the refrigerator is so I asked my brothers and they said “pretty new” so now that pissed me off. If it was really old, maybe I wouldn’t care if he took it, the fucking thieving bastard. My girlfriend creates many different kinds of art
Seven chakra jewelry
and recently sold something to someone in Belgium. Now THAT is how powerful the WEB has become. I used to love my job but now, I don’t know. It has sucked all my creative energy into a ball and thrown it away. I have been on my hands and kness looking for it. Egypt is so far away, I don’t care. Since Tim has become my boss, slowly but surely, all my crazy bills have gotten paid off. I can buy books and magazines for myself again. I go out to eat in strange nice places. I have lived in the THREE New Jerseys in my life. South. Central and now this wild jungle called North Jersey. There are alot of nice neighborhoods up here. Here, in the shadows of New York. I have found myself in strongly -knit Poish communities, waiting in line for pork and bread. Listening for hours to Polocks speaking Polish. Thinking that maybe old school Communism is gonna be ok.
Garfield, little Poland as seen from Botany Villiage
Here in Botany Village the melting pot of the north Jersey. Here in the depths of the year 2011, on a rainy cold night in the beginnig of March. In between Winter and Spring, Easter and rolling black clouds. I miss my family, I miss dancing with my brothers in my bedroom to the Grateful Dead, I miss being alone, I miss someone “liking” what I took a photo of. I miss being heard, I’m a little tired of listening, to all my employees, to my two boys, to my close friends and all their new endeavors and the exciting things going on. If I keep listening long enough I will learn another language. I could weed whack the McMansions of the rich people using no hands. If that butterfly guitar that opens from Africa ever gets into the view of Madonna, there would be a slight chance that I could meet her. We could smoke cigarettes together and sip long glasses of brandy. Joanna the designer, Merick the contractor, Mke the puppet and convention creator, Halina the nurse and Jack the float builder, Krystina the art teacher, Charles the guitar player, Anna the singer, Josh and Jonathan, my long lost dad, my mother would all be there. My mom would be writing letters, half in the bag, scribbling memories of her short life, spent one third of it pregnant, watching John Wayne movies….and sleeping in the room downstairs that used to be our garage. You will walk through life and meet all kinds of people. We all do this….and enjoy your life, with Gods help we can all be together again. (great advice mom)
_The effects of the moon-
February's full moon-2011
About George C. Hartman
Redesiging design, coloring outside the lines, rolling down hills, figuring out strange people, dreaming in black and white, photographing in black and white, juggling, body surfing, fantasy football, painting, design, digital art and photo manipulation, green oceans, blue oceans, museums, discovering small towns, biking, beach, relationships that tear my heart out, bad poetry, movie making and BLOGGING
What’s your number? meldonium cena na ukrainie Scientists examined a database of records covering 19 years of loggerhead sea turtle nesting along the eastern coast of Florida, which has become the largest sea turtle rookery in North America
How do you do? sominex listings The company, backed by private equity firm Warburg Pincusand Hertz Global Holdings Inc, is offering 426 millionnew shares, said a source with direct knowledge of the plans,citing details from a term sheet.
What’s the last date I can post this to to arrive in time for Christmas? glucobay acarbose The mosquitoes that spread chikungunya live throughout the South, West and Eastern seaboard of the U.S
Pleased to meet you revia ointment He then reconstructed bats' flight paths to determine their precise position as they emitted sounds
Languages slimex 15 uk pharmacy We Are One was a catchy tune meant to unite the world ahead of the beautiful game – only it didn't, because the principal singers were Pitbull, a Cuban-American rapper, and Jennifer Lopez, whose family is Puerto Rican.
Lost credit card kamagra plus / apcalis / erectalis After that I came to the truck and the rest of the cars to verify they were alright
Could you ask him to call me? i love topamax Canadian researchers looked at the link between sleep efficiency and academic performance in children
Insufficient funds kansas celebrex attorney Perhaps another way to summarize the point of the article is that governments are trying to recreate financial institutions that common people can have faith in, and to isolate “cowboy” bankers and swindlers from the public pool of tax money.
Could I have , please? clonidine catapres side effects In fact, Suki and compadres like Alexa Chung, Cara Delevingne and Daisy Lowe have pretty taken over the fashion scene nowadays
I’ll text you later how to take valtrex for cold sores While two-thirds of Republicans are Protestant, Democrats are more balanced between Protestant, Catholicism and Mormonism.
I’d like to cancel this standing order dulcolax suppository mechanism of action Meanwhile it has also announced that Simon Murray will be stepping down as chairman, to be replaced immediately by independent director Andrew Simon until a permanent replacement can be found.
Good crew it’s cool 🙂 amantadine mechanism of action You also used have to have cheese and ham for breakfast, which was a pain until Clive decided to take our own chef with us
Another year aricept smart drug Mr Grace said they would not be moving people or work from Scotland at the moment because it was too early to predict the outcome: “we are not clear exactly what the implications will be and, as you know, there is probably an an eighteen-month transition period.
It’s a bad line fluoxetine 40 mg daily Luis Vargas says he doesn’t care about “a piece of paper” as long as his daughter is getting a good education.
I work for a publishers pet supplies amoxicillin Secretary of State John Kerry, who has twice flown to Kabul since the run off, but little progress in fleshing out the structure of the government has been made since his departure two weeks ago.
I’ve been cut off amantadine (symmetrel) – a parkinson’s drug The funding proposals for the 210 industrial PhDplacements will be announced by Universities, Science and CitiesMinister Greg Clark
I never went to university pris abilify “All you need to do is look around to see how poorly a state with 315 million people is able to respond to the changes that need to be made.”
Cool site goodluck 🙂 comprar sildalis contrareembolso For the week, the Dow is up 1.6 percent, the S&P is up 1.7percent and the Nasdaq is up 2.3 percent
Insert your card ciprofloxacin 3 eye drops side effects At euronews we believe in the intelligence of our viewers and we think that the mission of a news channel is to deliver facts without any opinion or bias, so that the viewers can form their own opinion on world events.
Do you know the address? drug lamictal For example, cardiologists more often than not suggest that 1,500mg of salt per day is a sensible and safe upper limit
Sorry, I’m busy at the moment losartan generic side effects (On the low end of the spectrum, calls are more likely to drop in elevators.) But wireless coverage in most U.S
How much were you paid in your last job? coumadin diet teaching nursing In an interview with Reuters on Tuesday, Nobel prize-winning economist Joseph Stiglitz said other countries may struggle to revamp defaulted bonds unless an international framework is adopted, adding that Argentina was right to fight the U.S
Where are you from? precose tab 25 mg John Madden, Pat Summerall, Dan Marino, Rosey Grier and Troy Aikman all guest-star.
What do you do? allopurinol mechanism of action cancer I think it was supposed to be about Labour’s pro-business credentials, but it became more of a story about Labour’s pro-Europe credentials
We were at school together famvir online pharmacy One of the things that is lost in the big picture of the night is some of the sidebar poll findings – the American people are fed up with all their politicians
How much notice do you have to give? vimax 3 “From the hard streets of Queens, Mario Cuomo rose to the very pinnacle of political power in New York because he believed in his bones in the greatness of this state, the greatness of America and the unique potential of every individual,” Schumer said.
Do you know the number for ? naltrexone testimonials When the cell is discharged, all the lithium is actually transferred to the bottom layer
Have you seen any good films recently? cheap dapsone Only then is it possible to fairly compare the different sources of energy production
Have you seen any good films recently? ampicillin online kaufen This wasn’t about protecting the rights of Christians, as if they’re somehow under siege in that state if they’re asked to provide services to a gay couple wanting to marry
I’d like to cancel a cheque permethrin cream 5 dosage The Giants’ most disruptive defensive end suffered a stinger on Monday night, and while JPP returned to the game, the team will likely be cautious with him in practice this week, coach Tom Coughlin said Tuesday.
very best job felodipine hair loss Everyone wants to make music sacred, but White is one of the few people capable of making that not seem like illusory pretension
It’s a bad line olanzapine atypical dystonia Indonesia is the biggest grower, importer and consumer of cloves, producing between 60,000 and 80,000 tonnes a year
I’d like some euros clomipramine 10mg price Fresh: “‘Get Hard’ is worth a look for fans of Will Ferrell and Kevin Hart
It’s OK dramamine video blonde youtube Based on Friday’s potential sighting, though, “our search area is now focused slightly south and in the Swiftwater area, and Paradise and Pocono townships,” Bivens told reporters at Barrett Township Elementary Center.
I’m in a band how to use ashwagandha powder The survey of 300 people with type 2 diabetes also revealed that almost one in four forgot to take their diabetes medication at least once in the previous month and one in 20 forget their meds at least once a week.
How much notice do you have to give? diflucan receptfri The Huskers’ director of football operations just knows it’s a significant investment of time.
I’ve only just arrived can cipro cure bladder infection I’m always watching her, I don’t let her out of my sight.’’
I work for a publishers what is duricef 500 mg used for and finding that the September effect varies depending on which month most people go away.
Which year are you in? levitra side effects list For example, they are unable to assess the importance of speed and distance when it comes to moving vehicles.
We used to work together tadalista canada Residents said many militants moved out weeks before the operation began, including top commanders from the Haqqani network, a group blamed for the deadliest attacks on U.S
Where are you from? procyclidine hydrochloride 5 mg uses The first four Super Bowls featured teams that were in two entirely different leagues—the AFL and NFL before they merged—with little cross-pollination
I’m interested in anaconda nicki minaj clean By studying only those indiviuals who have serious psychopathology, the estimates of the correlation between self harm and psychiatri disorers may be infltd
Wonderfull great site ensemble meaning in urdu Florida is a member of the multi-state group, which joined the Federal Trade Commission to determine if the deals were legal under antitrust law, according to Whitney Ray, spokesman for Attorney General Pam Bondi.
I need to charge up my phone torsemide dose range She did show emotion when she conceded the party nomination to Obama; she lamented not having pierced that “highest glass ceiling”
I work here nexium free People get scared by all sorts of silly things, what’s funny in Cabrera’s case is that Tropicana Field is under a dome.
I’ll put him on penegra tablets price in india Defenders of the practices say they help schools raise donations, which can be used for scholarships, while others say the policies could discourage students whose families don’t have powerful social connections from applying.
I’m not interested in football berapa harga menghilangkan tato dengan laser Well, I suppose it might be less cruel than throwing a live lobster into a pot of boiling water, and probably less cruel than force-feeding a goose in order to fatten up their livers into foie gras.
Could I take your name and number, please? cara menggunakan dulcolax suppositories The Israel Securities Authority alleges Siemens and its Israeli subsidiary bribed the Israel Electric Corp
I’ve come to collect a parcel fertomid 50 mg tablet uses in telugu This is pretty much a need every year, but the draft ought to be Maccagnan’s strength so he’ll be expected to deliver right away
How long have you lived here? topamax 50 mg coupon In the October-December period, consumer spending — which accounts for roughly 70 percent of the economy — grew at a 4.3 percent rate, up from 3.2 percent in the third quarter