Moments I found…..Entry for October 27, 2006

Moments I found forever over the long wedding weekend: The 100 degree Sunday and watching football with Larry. Cutting Grants lawn on his tractor and getting “attacked” by a swarm of horseflys…(Susan said that is good luck) The nightly fires outside Grants porch with the music, bugs and long talks. Finding out how generous and kind Grants “dad” Jack is. One night I stayed up with Bernadette and we talked about teenagers, Whitman st, marriage and life until 4 in the morning. Driving moms old red car was strange….it became haunted and things that Grant said were broke forever….starting working……the power windows, AC and gas gauge. But we didnt get far in it…..we pulled into Winn Dixie with smoke billowing out and Susan screaming fire as the smoke came into the vents on the inside. With “Just Married” painted on the back window….alot of people came to help us. Laughing with Bonnie. Doing “the Twist” with Barb. I always visit Rebel…..I was close to him when I was young. I still owed him 10 dollars from a Super Bowl bet…..but I finally paid him for it this past weekend…..I burned a 10 dollar bill by his grave. It was great to hold and kiss Carol….last time I was here 6 months ago, she was in bed in the hospital. Her laugh is contagious. Glenn wasnt here but his spirit was deep in Nicole and Glenny…..dancing ALL night…..they were so much fun….Gary how I miss you…you were MY best man and you always will be…. My brother Gregory….we were roommates for what seemed like forever…..the bunkbeds….and then moving out together. His quick wit…..love of music…..knowledge of literature….always amazes me. Somehow we played the new Bob Dylan…over and over again the whole weekend…and the first thing I did when I got home was buy the CD. Because sometimes music will bring you back in time….to another place…..another time…..and this CD will do that for me…when I listen to these songs I go back to the weekend that life stopped for just a little bit…and the eight of us got together. It worked out really well. Thank you Florida for having us. Grant took this photo with my camera. I just didnt want to let go of Gregory….nor did he. We held on to each other for a very long time. It was this moment that really caught me by surprise…how much I miss and love everyone…..how happy and sad it was to get together. I just didnt want to let go.