Fall Ramblings……..Entry for November 15, 2006

This was the day I was dreading. The day the leaves went away. Grey smokey sky. Days of rain. Raining reds and yellows, pulling every last leaf from the trees of my Summer soul. One morning you wake up and everything can be changed. Looking so bare and bleak. Change happens so quickly. Seems like only yesterday I was pushing Josh around the corner in the baby carriage……and now last Sunday nite we sat together in a driving rain storm at Giants stadium. As quick as our team was winning the game….they lost. Like I said…Change is quick. There was a moment when I looked over at him…..poncho covered….rain dripping off his hood…almost as tall as me now….pimples and hormones like a raging wildfire…..and for a moment we just smiled at each other. I am thinking to myself….”what am I doing to you my son?”
Here, on the verge of Wnter, we wait patiently for Belindas baby. She is due the 23. It is very exciting. A miracle, birth is…….and more swift change in life.
A Glenn update: After eight weeks he finally did get his teeth. He is very happy with them. He wrote that he has to learn how to eat all over again. He is also in alot of hard physical pain and they refuse to help him. His back has been hurting him. Carol and Barb called the facility seeking answers. They are finally going to send him to a nerologist. He will be getting out in eight weeks. Barb picked him up a coat and some clothes at the thrift store because the location of the few things he did own are unknown. He did mention some ambitions to stay sober. There was more media coverage at Grant and Viki’s wedding than there is at the Iraq war. I just recently added about 30 new wedding photos and a new page to Belindas shower…I really don’t know who those people are but it kinda makes me a little happy that I’ve never been invited to a shower my whole life.
It has been awile since the last Blog posting….I have been buried at work. It is good creative things but yes….it still becomes……work. Why is happiness so hard to find sometimes???….a good friend told me once…”If we don’t change, we don’t grow. If we don’t grow, we aren’t really living.”….siging off